As I prepared to drop in for the show for some soulful reflection and deep medicine, I was both restless and hesitant. Ready and anxious.

When I woke up that morning, I thought I had nothing to share with you. No edge to work, no epiphanies to relate.

And then… as I surrendered to the quietness of the spaces in between… dropped out of the head and into the unknowing - our medicine for the week presented itself front and center with no room for uncertainty. No wiggle room allowed.

Of course, it wasn’t what I WANTED to talk about. It wasn’t even something I have figured out. I’ve only just begun exploring it.

I am by no means an expert on healing this wound, but I am a very willing student to the wisdom of its lesson.

As a life long, Lone Wolf, I’ve built my identity around resilience and radical self responsibility. I’ve never cared much about what other people thought and even less about such seemingly frivolous endeavors as nurturing friendships. I’ve constructed convincing stories about people not “getting me,” and about being too energetically sensitive to be involved with most other humans.

I’ve used my work and my fire for my purpose as a way to separate myself from personal relationships and located myself in a town, and in a state that couldn’t be less aligned with who and what I am.

I’ve invalidated the loving support of those closest to me who show up with such unconditional love and service.

I’ve done everything I can to insure that Aloneness is the badge of honor I wear with pride and with grief.

I also simultaneously LONG for healing. I desire intimacy and connection. I crave love and being known at the deepest levels of my Essence.

What lies between one and the other feels like a gaping chasm of uncertainty. I have no idea where to begin. Only the knowing that I must.

On our show, we discussed the pain and the power of the Lone Wolf and energetically felt for a crack in the armor.

We navigated the illusions and shone a light toward the truth that called Us.

Here are a few highlights:

7:09 My story as a Portal into YOUR story

15:21 My deepest longing revealed

17:54 Honoring the gifts of the Lone Wolf

26:11 "Our exterior world is just a manifestation of our interior energetic set-up"

32:37 Listening to the Medicine of your Own Wolf

47:50 What moved me to tears

There is deep medicine here for all of us. Even if you believe you are not this.

The Lone Wolf disguises herself in many ways and she is cunning in her deception.

Let’s honor her gifts together as we make our way back Home.