Not married but have been living with a partner for 20 years. Over the years we have grown apart, he is a good provider, has provided and is consistent . I, on the other hand , have felt for the longest while , he is emotionally distant, there is no sexual contact, intimacy, or any TLC. I believe he cares but he is in his own world, as long as he has his TV, football games, and his routine. He has never been married, he does not talk about marriage but I am happy with that. We have different interests, I am a social , warm, energetic kind, love to entertain, love to be around people. We share a house but don’t share a home.Recently, during my visit back to my hometown, An ex of mine from my high school years, revealed he has never stopped loving me and contacted me. He is married, we are in our 70’s now, but we both feel that connection never died. However, he is in another country . Although I care about my partner, I do not love him, he is a good provider, but that it. I never get hugs, I never get thank you, that was a good meal, all the “ nice things “ a woman would like to hear is missing. If I am sick, he will only take care of me if I ask him to..Otherwise I don’t exist. I have been feeling empty..I am missing passion, tenderness, connection, we live two different lives and all I find myself doing is keeping busy and doing my own thing..Many times, I have asked him to sign a “ domestic agreement” he ignores, so I stopped asking.. I feel I want to be done, but because of financial obligations, I am stuck. He has always been a good provider, and has co tributes in many was never denied me anything but has not co tributes emotionally, physically or emotionally..what do I do ..I have developed strong feelings for my ex boyfriend..and I get this wonderful tingle in my heart when I get his messages. Am I just deprived ? Help ..feeling overwhelmed .