Even while dressed up in child years. I couldn't get into the spirit of Christmas. I believed from the very beginning there was more to the story than what my parents said. I didn't grasp the concept of why family and friends took one day out of their out of their life to be nice. They chose one day out of the year to share gifts. Once I discovered that Jesus had a deeper purpose in Christmas I went into hiding. For nobody in my family was speaking the name or story of this guy.