You will get through this time in life, it may not seem like there is any light at the end of the tunnel but their most definitely is, I cannot say that I have been through more than you have, or my circumstances are worse because I don’t know your story and I don’t know what you’ve been through but I can’t say that if I can get through it and if Job in the Bible could get through it along with everybody else that has gotten through it can you do it you can do it to don’t give up. Look to God have faith open your Bible pray surround yourself with positive people, and find activities that will lift you up. God is good all the time and all the time God is good.